House-bound

Reinhold Niebuhr:
Nothing worth doing is completed in our lifetime,
Therefore, we are saved by hope.
Nothing true or beautiful or good makes complete sense in any immediate context of history;
Therefore, we are saved by faith.
Nothing we do, however virtuous, can be accomplished alone.
Therefore, we are saved by love.
No virtuous act is quite a virtuous from the standpoint of our friend or foe as from our own;
Therefore, we are saved by the final form of love which is forgiveness.

After spending the last two days at home, and I mean at home… no leaving the house at all, I conclude that it is at once a torture and a joy. For many a reason which: I am too lazy to type about. :p

I spent my last two days in the house, doing as much studying as I possibly could.
Almost drove myself crazy looking at all the graphs, theories and yet more graphs…
-coughs blood-
So much to do, so little time…
-coughs more blood-
Then again, if I were to say that I spent all my time studying, I would be telling a big fat lie… coz I also played computer, watched television and banged the piano… but most importantly, I slept!
-chucklez-

The rain these two days damn shiok lor~
So refreshing!
When it rains, it’s the perfect time to sleep!
-hysterical laughter-

Been hearing this song on the radio…

NE-YO - So Sick

Mmmm mmm yeah
Do do do do do do do-do
Ohh Yeah

Gotta change my answering machine
Now that I'm alone
Cuz right now it says that we
Can't come to the phone
And I know it makes no sense
Cuz you walked out the door
But it's the only way I hear your voice anymore
(it's ridiculous)
It's been months
And for some reason I just
(can't get over us)
And I'm stronger then this
(enough is enough)
No more walkin round
With my head down
I'm so over being blue
Cryin over you

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

Gotta fix that calender I have
That's marked July 15th
Because since there's no more you
There's no more anniversary
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of you
And your memory
And how every song reminds me
Of what used to be

That's the reason I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?

(Leave me alone)
Leave me alone
(Stupid love songs)
Dont make me think about her smile
Or having my first child
Let it go
Turning off the radio

Cuz I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

Said I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishing she was still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
So why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)

And I'm so sick of love songs
So tired of tears
So done with wishin you were still here
Said I'm so sick of love songs so sad and slow
Why can't I turn off the radio?
(why can't I turn off the radio?)
Why can't I turn off the radio?


There has been much running through my head these few days… so many things I itch to write about, but yet, I don’t for specific reasons…
All those thoughts just keep swirling round and round …
Most of the time, I just let them pound until, when I can no longer stand it… I resort to writing poetry…
-psychotic laughter-
I want so much to talk out my problems and get some closure regarding those subjects… but who can I talk to?
Talking to my family is kind of a problem… coz they would probably end up lecturing me for getting myself into those messes… or they would not be able to understand coz the age gap is just too big… den again, maybe I don give them enough credit…
-hits head against the wall-
I can’t talk to certain people about certain things, coz why?
I know too much.
Yes, by golly, I know too freaking much… thank God I have a bad memory… if not I would not be able to sleep at night… bleah…
Knowledge is not necessarily power.
Taking the whole ‘closure from talking to someone’ from another angle… I don think it would be fair to the person I talk to, I would be burdening that person with my own problems… and is it not true that we all have issues of our own?
Gwad… what a mess… -.-lll
-continues hitting head against the wall-

Da Chang Jin has taken my television room by storm!
Every night, TKM,YKM and (sometimes) I, will sit in front of the tube and watch the exploits of that girl… haha…
Personally, I am more interested in Min Zheng Hao then Chang Jin… haha… he is gorgeous lor! Can you blame me for looking out for him? :p
-migumi laughter-

Aight!
The weekend awaits… and so does Witch Hunter Robin…
-hysterical laughter-
^-^